39 Weeks

Tomorrow I will be 39 weeks pregnant.  To be honest, I never thought I would make it this far.  I have felt that this baby was coming for the past 4 weeks and can't believe that I'm still waiting.  What a different experience this time than when I was pregnant with Maya.  Her head was never down and so the physical sensations, pressure and sometimes pain that I am experiencing with this pregnancy are all firsts for me.  And I also never had a toddler to take care of with my first pregnancy so I'm certainly much more tired.  The "newness" of being pregnant has faded and I don't feel anywhere near as glowing or full of beauty as I did the first time. However in the midst of these frustrations and wishing I was handling it all better emotionally I have come to realize that even though this pregnancy has not been the same as what I experienced with Maya, it has all contributed to making me just that much more excited to meet our little one.  I feel bonded to our son in a much stronger way already which may be because we know he is a boy or because I am just so focused on making him part of our family and can understand the joy and peace that it brings more completely because of Maya. We are ready to move onto the next stage of caring for our precious baby boy.  So I am counting it all as blessings until we expand our family and know that we will find the blessings continue.

Last night I had Jay take some pregnancy pictures of me so I have something for our son to look at one day.  Not sure my belly could get any bigger!!